Pharmacy Pharmacy Pharmacy. That is where I’m heading, but what actions am I taking towards it?
It’s come senior year of Uni, and all the buzz going around this particular generation is what are you going to do after you graduate? More like what steps are you taking NOW, to set up your future? That is the real question people should be asking. 20 years from high school graduation, at that reunion, it will be interesting to see where people have lead their lives since 2008. In 2011, I can say it hasn’t been far, but it sure has been a long walk.
Taking up four classes, I am struggling to keep up the required material while attending extracurriculars. It doesn’t help to have a quiz every week for Organic Chemistry, causes immense stress. It doesn’t help that the professor is a complete jerk about the class also. I don’t know what esterfication is, I understand I should know it, but is it necessary to be such an asshole about receiving and answer. Being mean doesn’t help me understand it. Also the new policy of having every student submit some kind of question about assigned reading in every class to promote students to be on top of their work ethic is least to say some-what effective if the student doesn’t just B.S. every damn .01% of their grade assignment.
With extracurriculars, I have to set my priorities. Martial Arts, Fraternity, Anime Club?, and two new things added. I want to utilize what I learned in photography over my time in Hong Kong and through out the world as an Historian for the Chinese student association here at Uni. Then there is the possibility of becoming president of Pharmacy Club. It has been rocky paths for that club, and I want to set it straight. Though I’m sure all leaders before have tried with best intentions to lead Pharmacy Club. I have even seen the best leader shut themselves away and leave dwindling hopes. My priorities are badly scattered.
It seems that everyone is selfish, but in the Uni life you have to be. You have to be cut-throat, and evil to the point of no return. Although exuding it outwardly, physically, and emotionally is non-existent. The veil covers over all students as humanitarian, volunteer oreinted, and promote actions in building a better communities. Realistically, these are tickets, vouchers, coupons to have at a discounted price of admission to a higher institution along with the assumption your superb grades. It is all for the self, even for the most altruistic people. Doing actions for the sake of others is still an innate selfish desire to want to give yourself to another person’s cause. It is socially perceived as saintly and pure.
That is the dilemma in my naive logic. My logic based on my small insignificant amount of experiences I have lived thus far. Everything after now, after graduation, after 20 years, has been for what? The betterment of humanity in hopes for the next generation to have a healthier, cleaner, safer future?
Smiling at living. Everything that surmounts to accomplishing every refining detail you possess. When you are safe, when you know what you know because you can say, “I did that.” Living life for yourself. Not that living life for the sake of everyone else bullshit. (Which unless you’re a parent, you can claim as not B.S. ( I am not a parent I know nothing of the matter, I’m talking about the majority of feral Uni-students)) The counter argument is, if everyone lived for themselves and didn’t care about the world by polluting, dumping, etc. We would be living in our own shit. You don’t want that. I don’t want that. We’ll be doing something about that, through out life.
Stuff that comes thru my mind:
All talk, no action is the definition of a failure at life.
Do you want it as bad as you want to breathe?